I live with my fiance. I love him, but his faster metabolism and somewhat more active lifestyle keeps him thin. I've never seen anyone eat whole pizzas before without a) feeling sick and b) gaining a pound. That is, I never saw such a thing until I moved out to Oregon. I've gotten so comfortable with not looking at myself and thinking that snacking on something bad for me won't hurt. Not to blame anything on Justin (because he is a wonderful man,) but he makes me feel comfortable and beautiful no matter what I look like, which can be good and bad.
I feel like my intentions are good when I grocery shop. I often don't like to shop around in the aisles and stay on the perimeters of the store, meaning most of my shopping comes from the healthiest sections of the store. I just crave things in the middle of the night and often will make that midnight run to the grocery store for cookies or cake or some random flavor of Ben & Jerry's. I hate to say it, but eating an entire pint of ice cream and sorbet has become sort of a sport for me.
My wake-up call came the other day when I ate half of a deep dish pizza. I haven't done anything about it until today because I've been sick and needed to go grocery shopping, but it's starting right here, right now. I need to get in shape and feel healthy and to get my self esteem back... And I need to do it for me. I made a list:
Reasons Why I Want to Lose Weight:
1. to feel fabulous
2. to get rid of all those aches and pains
3. to have healthy babies
4. to stick it to the man... or in other words my stepmother.
5. to be able to wear cute clothes
6. to be able to wear all the clothing in my closet
7. to never have fat pants again
8. to be able to go to a nude beach and feel fantastic
9. to enjoy taking pictures
10. to live a healthy lifestyle
11. to have energy
12. so that I can feel proud of myself
13. to not feel tired after going up a flight of stairs
-Randi
-Randi
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