I'm hungry.

That's it.

salad fun

I think I have been doing much better lately with eating despite not taking my ADD medicine.

I have been packing lunch this week.  I made some sushi for yesterday's lunch and today I brought 3 clementines and a yogurt.   I also brought a Luna bar every day.  They're not that great, but they're okay in case I get hungry between small meals.

Yesterday I made a really delicious salad.  Here is what I put in it:

mixed greens and baby arugula 

a clementine 

5 or 6 sliced strawberries

a few pieces of thinly sliced pecorino romano (fancy schmancy) cheese

a couple of crushed walnuts

6 or 7 slices of crunched morning star pretend chicken strips

(put some olive oil in a pan and then stick the strips in until they're crunchy)

top it off with some light rasperry vinagrette dressing and NOM NOM NOM 'til your heart's content

next time i think i'll add a little carrot, avacado, and cucumber, but i was being a lazy bum and didn't feel like cutting them.  theyre all fairly neutral vegetables which would go well with the other fruits.

Fresh Start

I'm glad that Lindsay made the first post because I sometimes have no idea what to write and start on some random spree of words. It's a similar process to my eating habits. There are plenty of times when I have no idea what kind of food I want or should be eating, so I just start grazing on whatever is here.

I live with my fiance. I love him, but his faster metabolism and somewhat more active lifestyle keeps him thin. I've never seen anyone eat whole pizzas before without a) feeling sick and b) gaining a pound. That is, I never saw such a thing until I moved out to Oregon. I've gotten so comfortable with not looking at myself and thinking that snacking on something bad for me won't hurt. Not to blame anything on Justin (because he is a wonderful man,) but he makes me feel comfortable and beautiful no matter what I look like, which can be good and bad.

I feel like my intentions are good when I grocery shop. I often don't like to shop around in the aisles and stay on the perimeters of the store, meaning most of my shopping comes from the healthiest sections of the store. I just crave things in the middle of the night and often will make that midnight run to the grocery store for cookies or cake or some random flavor of Ben & Jerry's. I hate to say it, but eating an entire pint of ice cream and sorbet has become sort of a sport for me.

My wake-up call came the other day when I ate half of a deep dish pizza. I haven't done anything about it until today because I've been sick and needed to go grocery shopping, but it's starting right here, right now. I need to get in shape and feel healthy and to get my self esteem back... And I need to do it for me. I made a list:

Reasons Why I Want to Lose Weight:

1. to feel fabulous

2. to get rid of all those aches and pains

3. to have healthy babies

4. to stick it to the man... or in other words my stepmother.

5. to be able to wear cute clothes

6. to be able to wear all the clothing in my closet

7. to never have fat pants again

8. to be able to go to a nude beach and feel fantastic

9. to enjoy taking pictures

10. to live a healthy lifestyle

11. to have energy

12. so that I can feel proud of myself

13. to not feel tired after going up a flight of stairs

-Randi

Back in the right direction!

Well, today is Day #3 of wearing the same pair of pants since none of my other fit. That's a lie, actually. I have two other pairs that fit, but I'm lazy and didn't feel like doing my laundry.
So, my quest in the next couple of weeks is to get my pants to fit again. Let's just get that taken care of first before I do anything crazy like make them too loose. I just want to be able to sit in them. That cool?

So I think it should be easy. Yesterday I did pretty well until I got home, but then I stopped myself. I have to make sure I realize that I'm eating, not just shoveling. I'm also going to make sure that I sit down and actually eat meals at the table. I usually just sit at the couch, but I can't do that anymore.

I have cut out soda and juices again aside from the occasional glass of orange juice or cranberry drink to go with my vodka. I also told myself that I wasn't going to allow myself to get food off of the food trucks too much this year unless it was fruit. I'm going back to whole grain everything and more vegetables and fruits than anything else. Things should be easier with the medicine. Oh yeah, and I quit my job at a bagel store/bakery, so I won't be eating too many bagels or day old baked goods anymore. I didn't like that I had to eat when they told me to eat because often I ate an entire meal when I wasn't hungry.

And...I turned down brownies yesterday. Oh man.